Friday, March 21, 2014

sparkly eyes, cupcakes, and the end of an era

Graduation is drawing ever closer. in almost one month exactly i will be walking across the stage to receive my diploma. With that day comes the end of my student teaching experience, the end of my BYU student experience, the end of my student days; it's a really weird realization.

i almost don't want student teaching to end. i've loved the opportunity to teach preschool and third grade. i haven't talked much about my experiences teaching here yet. My first placement was at the preschool on campus. i absolutely loved getting to work with all of those four-year-olds every day. i learned so much from Miss Dorie, Anne, and the other teachers there. i was able to see a truly developmentally appropriate preschool setting and learn how to best teach those children.

Currently i'm about half-way through my third grade placement. The differences between preschool and third grade are many but they still require the same thoughtfulness in instruction. Even though they can sit and listen to a lesson doesn't mean that they should only be taught that way; they still learn best when they're actively participating. i try my best to keep this in mind as i prepare each lesson and each day.

Some days feel longer and seem to be more tiring than others; but it's always worth it. i was told by my facilitator yesterday that i'm simply excelling in my teaching and that i have a wonderful teacher presence (the thing i've actually been most nervous about). He told me my constant smile and sparkly eyes help the students know i truly care about them which has helped develop the mutual respect i have with these children. it was simply the most wonderful compliment he could have given me. Definitely made my week.

Things just seemed to fall into place this week as well. i got my email today about the Teacher Work Sample saying "Hello Emme, I wanted to let you know that you have passed your Teacher Work Sample. Congratulations! I hope you have a wonderful weekend!" My cohort friends and i have been waiting for three weeks to hear the results of the TWS; from the sounds of it everyone has passed so far. The relief it brings is unbelievable. One step closer to graduation and the next step in life.

The family is making arrangements to come out for my graduation and i couldn't be more excited for them to come out and visit. Some of them will be here for a whole week!

i've also decided that i would like to plan an adventure. i was in the midst of making cupcakes today when i received a very unexpected Facebook message. An indiana friend from over a year and a half ago messaged me. He and i met when i visited indiana with Miss Momo back in 2012. We met, we clicked, we really liked each other. Things didn't end up working out between us and i hadn't talked to him since. So you can imagine my surprise to see him messaging me out of the blue. Apparently he'd been wanting to say hi to me for a few weeks and finally did. And you know what? i'm really glad he did. it was nice to hear that life was treating him well; just a good friend conversation. While we were chatting the topic of adventures came up with my graduation. i mentioned maybe New York which he fully supported. That and Niagara Falls. Then i remembered Carlos' Bakery out in Hoboken which i have been dying to visit. So i "planned" an adventure. Sometime in the next year i'm going to make it happen.

Today was the first time i've made cupcakes in months. i think i only made cupcakes one other time since the Fireman and i began dating. Time and energy for cupcakes were just never on my side throughout that relationship; not because of him. With spending time with the Fireman, student teaching, working, my church calling...i just never felt up to it. But being freshly single with time to spare now that i'm only student teaching i have all kinds of time now! And it feels like home to be spending it baking my favorite cupcakes. Check out those beauties!





i have a new favorite artist this week. Jasmine Thompson is another cover artist and i'm in love with her style. it's got the Ingrid Michaelson, Christina Perri, Julia Sheer vibe to it. Take a listen. it's simply fab.



Sunday, March 9, 2014

the point

i don't quite know what the point of this post is. Except to say that in all honesty, i'm doing great. it's been fairly hit or miss over the last month what with the dating aspect of my life.

Last weekend was rough. Doubts swirled and stormed and created new doubts and nothing i was doing (aside from career) really felt right and i couldn't figure it out. i would pray about an answer and then doubt my confirmation and it was driving me crazy. After some sound advice i realized why. This led to a complete change in the way i viewed my prayers and following answers. That led to the metaphorical weights on my shoulders being lifted and the knot in my stomach disappearing.

And for once after what felt like forever (but i'm sure was not) i felt light. Just...good. And i knew it would all turn out ok. (it helps that he took the finalness of everything so well).

i just..i get it now. And i understand the things i need to work on to truly be the person i want to be. Not that i'm a bad person now, but i want to be and can be so much more and i can see it now.

So i guess that's it, the point. That i understand now. it's a beautiful revelation, really. A light one. And it helps.

Monday, February 17, 2014

eventually time will pass

Why on earth does time take so dang long to just...pass? The moments and days you actually want to breeze through and forget and move past somehow take the longest and the ones you want to stop end in a blink.

Some days are just naturally easier. You wake up and you can just tell that the day is going to be good. Thankfully.

Others...seem to move by at a snail's pace; slow as molasses giving the hurt the opportunity to come back. To linger awhile. Giving you too much time to think.

You know full well that there will be more good days than bad. You know. But the waiting for enough time to pass...How much is enough anyways?

Sunday, February 9, 2014

consequences



No matter how hard it is, how hurt you feel, how betrayed you feel..."in the morning the sun will rise" and eventually it will be ok.

Friday, February 7, 2014

actions

"No action of ours comes without consequences to others".

Truer words....

Sunday, January 26, 2014

music pt. 98

i will admit that i sobbed to this song driving home last night...


Tuesday, January 21, 2014

a monday day date

For Martin Luther King Jr. Day this last week, neither the Fireman or i had school (he doesn't have school on Mondays anyways, but whatever). in honor of having a few spare moments where we didn't have to think about school or work we went on a Monday day date full of fun! The plan was to take the Frontrunner train from Provo to Ogden and back since the Fireman's favorite things in the entire whole wide world are trains.

To make the most of our time, we started early. We made the train in Provo right before 8 in the AM and made a stop in Orem for breakfast.


Our adventure included quite a bit of walking and meandering.

The train ride north was full of chatter, pictures, music, and Mad Libs. We're obviously just really hilarious. 

The adventure continued at Union Station in Ogden. The day really turned out to be quite the fantastic train date. The Fireman waltzed with me through the main room on our way to tour the train exhibit (the little old man at the information desk even clapped for us).

We decided on our way back south (as we munched on delicious Lunchables) that it would only make sense to play in Salt Lake for a wee smidge. We meandered through City Creek spending quite a bit of time at Deseret Book (i just love the book stores!).

By the time we headed back down to Provo for good, we were both exhausted and starving. Good thing we had Joe Bandido's planned for dinner because i don't know if anything would have sufficed. The chips and salsa are divine and make the trip to Springville worth it (unlike Guru's. i'm still peeved about that warm salsa the other day...)

As you can see, Monday day dates are really just fabbity-fab-fab and i can see many more coming. 

*Sidenote: after deleting the pictures on my computer they deleted from the blog...oh well.